Even out here in the desert-y part of Idaho, Fall is in the air. I can feel my mood dropping as seasonal affective disorder prepares to settle in for a long winter’s nap. I’ve spent most of my life struggling with depression, and its always worse in the winter. When I’m really depressed, I go into “victim of the world” mode. I let things happen to me, instead of trying to make things happen. Then, because I feel helpless instead of in control, I get more depressed. How useless is that?
I’m joining in the 31 Day Challenge hosted by The Nesting Place to see if I can at least give myself a fighting chance against depression. I have to remember that good days don’t just happen. They take some work and planning. So I’m going deliberately do something every day with the intent of dealing with depression. Something that will hopefully help lift my mood.
In fact, for the next 31 days, I’m going to be giving depression the bird. And not just any old bird, either. Oh, no. I’m giving depression the Canada Goose. Why? Because, like my depression, they never leave. Seriously, there are Canada Geese here year-round. They’ve decided they like the place so much that many of them don’t migrate anymore. Lazy fuckers.
I was originally going to go with “Fuck Depression,” but The Nesting Place looks like too kind and gentle a place for that sentiment. So I’m going to call it “31 Days of Giving Depression The Bird,” but I’m going to secretly think of it as “Fuck Depression.” You can think of it however makes you happy. I like the power and owning of it involved in the second sentiment.
Without further ado:
31 Days of Giving Depression the Bird
(But secretly “Fuck Depression.”)
Day 1: For the Birds
Day 2: Gardening is cheaper than therapy
Day 3: Loki in a bathrobe
Day 4: Schrödinger’s support group
Day 5: The Kindness of Strangers: SARK
Day 6: Redefining the goal: I want to thrive.
Day 7: Resources and links
Day 8: 37 Reverse Birthday Cards: Part 1/4
Day 9: 37 Reverse Birthday Cards: Part 2/4
Day 10: 37 Reverse Birthday Cards: Part 3/4
Day 11: 37 Reverse Birthday Cards: Part 4/4
Day 12: Happy birthday to me
Day 13: The most wonderful time of the year
Day 14: Resources and links
Day 15: No sheet, Sherlock
Day 16: Houses with Stairs = Not My Best Friend
Day 17: Happy Feet
Day 18: Flattened But Still Moving (like a bug on the windshield)
Day 19: Morning Has Broken
Day 20: Resources and links
Day 21: Happy anniversary to us
Day 22: Go Downtown
Day 23: Get Out of Town
Day 24: Tea For One
Day 25: Childhood, All Grown Up
Day 26: Do It Anyway
Day 27: Resources and Links
Day 28: Fishslapped by the flu
Day 29: Captain Tripps Pays Me A Visit
Day 30: The Horror
Day 31: Storm Chaser
**ps. I don’t think for a moment that I can “cure” chronic depression in 31 days, nor do I think depressed people need to just buck up and act as if they’re OK. No. No. No. I’m just trying to take back some control of my life. Your mileage may vary.**